Long after the balmy dusk rolls into night
Winds chill my bone marrow
When hoary indolence defies snowy survival
Lying beside the lake
I clinch self-treachery
And give in to dark death
When shrill voices diffuse
And reach my eardrums
As hard snowflakes
Then, my darling
I see you with my eyes closed
And sink into you
Forever
posted by divineflame @ 5:54 PM
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My journey into eternity
An odyssey of celebration
Of compassion
Of love
The mountain trail
The waterfall
The bird’s eye view of the green valley
The winter rain
And I forgive those
Who ever killed
A part of me
And reduced me
To what I am
This moment
The only moment
In my journey into eternity
posted by divineflame @ 5:53 PM
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icebreaker! still not at terms with this one. This betrays me again and again. But i can't think of a different one. From where do I bring a new one? Can I change myself? The highest highs and the lowest lows... such a thin line. I break it again and again. exhilaration, triumph, craze, madness, thirst for change, temporary, kick initially, irriversible later, losing fast...sinking...sinking...deep...shrinking...shrinking...shrinking...tiny...non existent...hate myself.
posted by divineflame @ 7:58 PM
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this bmw is germanna?
yeah.
ford also, aa?
no, that's american.
hey this girl will come to hotella?
maybe.
how much she will charge?
no idea. go ask her.
indian airlines air india differenta?
yeah.
hey, this frozen chicken will be fresha?
donno.
microwave is not dangerousa?
no.
hey these guyz are punjabis.
no. they're not.
no man, they r punjabis. they have just changede their hairstyle.
i'm from north india. i can identify punjabis. these guys r not indians.
no maga, i'm telling u they are punjabis.
ok. maybe.
posted by divineflame @ 7:25 PM
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came out soon after I thought I heard his internal voice in June 2004.
*********
my core,
is sore.
my spine,
is powdered.
my eyes,
are burning.
my head,
is splitting.
my heart,
is drumming.
my blood,
is boiling.
my thoughts,
recoiling.
my senses,
are fading.
my spirits,
are jading.
my existence,
is shrinking.
i am dissolving...
and my core,
is no more,
my core.
posted by divineflame @ 6:20 PM
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Icebreaker?
Not again...I will never be able to come to terms with this metaphorical word that served its purpose absolutely well once. Can I start something like this all over again? Impossible. A sharp arrow dipped in embarrasment shoots through my spine whenever I think about the whole thing. What was it? An innocent prank by an infant who wanted to grow up in a jiffy? An endeavor spun out of pure curiosity that would later go on to take the shape of a thing serious? at the expense of human emotions? An ignorant allowance of incidents that wanted to break out of the probability cocoon? None of these. Could it have been any other way? I guess not. Then who's responsible? We have a habit of holding humans responsible for all occurences- with or without their effectable entanglements. Within that boundary, I take the responsibility.
The ultimate test will be to live through the penetrating questions that might be thrown at me at some point. But interestingly, and fortunately, withdrawal had spread its wings in both the territories at about the same time and that might serve as a plausible explanation. All actions have to be rationalized one way or the other so that the end justifies the means. An experience always showers learnings; more so if it's bad. That is our take-away.
The ever-existing deep tension unwinds and surfaces up on every opportunity. May be that's why they say "Truth comes out". But still there are loose ends. Loose ends that may never be tied. Loose ends that'll be declared forgotten in superficial consciousness but will keep on breathing deep down. Wake up! this is the real world. Braces are not matched here.
posted by divineflame @ 5:40 PM
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